Annliezel Bautista

My heart need a vacation.should I? No one cares especially u. U've been happy with ur life but u forget im one of it.u forgot u're missing 1 piece that really need ur attention. Now u will going far away in these few days but still u wasted my precious time. I dont care what people might say but please do me a favor.dont treat me bad. Thats all. Nite.

Hi peepz. its been such a long time since my last post. i constantly wonder how my life looks in other's people eyes. Do they think i have it easy? Do they think i have nothing going on for myself? or are they fascinated with who i am?  The thing is that people are so quick to judge nowadays. U only see a person from what they want & allow u to see. I always try to look as put together as i can, & i guess that's my way of hiding the truth. It's just the way that everyone will assume that everything in my life is okay, that i never go through anything.  If only everyone knew how broken i am, & how i am holding on for dear life on this last strand  taht recently become very delicate.the truth is, no one really knows me. No one will ever know me, & sometimes that scares me, because no one will ever know why i am the way i am. 

Once you have seen the truth you must make the decision to let go of the pain, anger, and resentment you have been holding on to. This requires you to take action. If you are attached to your pain, resentment, and self-righteousness, and addicted to your emotional reactions, this will be a difficult step for you. Taking action requires letting go of the very thing you have been holding on to for so many years.There is comfort in what we find familiar,even if we are experiencing pain and suffering.The pain and suffering itself becomes the familiarity we seek. It takes absolute faith in yourself plus courage, will, and discipline to let go. But once you let go, it will be as if the weight of the world has been taken off your shoulders. In this process it is important to forgive not just the others in our lives, but also ourselves. For most people, giving ourselves the gift of forgiveness is very challenging.

Kereta dihentikan betul-betul di hadapan rumah. Pintu pagar automatiknya terbuka. Perlahan kereta dihalakan ke dalam garaj. “Horey!  Papa balik!” Kelihatan anak-anaknya berlari mengiringi keretanya. “Tepi! Bahaya tau tak?” Jeritnya. Anak-anak termanggu. Cahaya kegembiraan di wajah mereka pudar. “Aimin bawa adik ke belakang.” Arahnya pada anak yang sulong. Pulangnya petang itu disambut dingin oleh anak-anak. Isterinya turut terdiam bila mendengar anak-anak mengadu tentang papa mereka. “Papa penat. Aimin bawa adik mandi dulu. Mama siapkan minum petang. Lepas minum papa mesti nak main bola dengan kita,” pujuk Laila. Dia yang mendengar di ruang tamu hanya mendengus. Seketika kemudian terdengar hilai tawa anak-anaknya di bilik mandi. Dia bangun. “Hah! Main air. Bil bulan ini papa kena bayar dekat seratus. Cepat! Tutup paip tu! Buka shower!” Sergahnya. Suara yang bergema mematikan tawa anak-anaknya. “Asal saya balik rumah mesti bersepah. Kain baju berselerak. Apa awak makan tidur aje ke ...

when someone ask me when i'll get married. i answered,  "ask God. don't ask me."  :)  4 me, marriage is a huge responsiblity. im a fresh graduate n i've just started my career, i dont even have my own car n home yet (not like d others,depend on their parents to buy them car n other things) i still have a long journey of life. i want my own car, my own home n other things,buy with my own money,my hard-earned. not to forget, my parents also need my care ( susah payah dorang bangun masakkan aku bekal,urus makan pakai aku,hantar ambil aku p kerja. thanx mumy dady.= smpai aku d gelar anak manja ) secondly is, yaa..most of u know that im a christian, n my bf is muslim right? u got the point there. i need to do few steps for becoming the new family of muslim before i get married. i have to make a  hard decision in my life just for a marriage. ( kalau jodoh aku sma c dia,amin ^__^  ) so, the point is, its not easy to get married. im pretty sure if i have n do all ...

" Jum p lunch " " Where? " " How about kfc? " " ok." Aku dan ayah melangkah ke kfc dengan di sambut mesra oleh pekerja di sana. Selesai pesan makanan, kami duduk di sudut restoran itu dan bersebelahan kami adalah seorang pakcik tua, berkemeja hitam di satukan dengan seluar panjang, berselipar jepun.  " jam 1 suda kan pakcik? " kata orang tua itu kepada ayahku sambil melihat jam. Ayah cuma mengangguk kepala. Terlintas di fikiranku, siapa pakcik tua tu? Duduk di restoran tapi sedikit makanan pun tiada di hadapannya. Dia hanya duduk melihat kesibukkan orang di sekelilingnya. "siapa tu dady?" "orang gila kali. Just ignore him." Kami menikmati snack plate dan beberapa jenis makanan yang dipesan tapi saya masih dalam keraguan mengenai orang tua tersebut. Betulkah dia orang yang kurang waras ataupun seorang pengemis? Tiba-tiba, seorang pemuda memanggilnya dan memberi dia sekeping duit kertas berwarna ...

morning world ! bgn ja pagi, cm ada yg hilang dalam idup ku. yaa.. lama suda x menyambung hobi..Menulis cerpen.. start masuk poly truz hilang hobi. haha. besa la.. there's no time writing a short stories while u're study-dying the mechanical engineering stuff. TWO DIFFERENT WORLD isn't it?  hobi menulis cerpen / short story ne start since i was in Form 1. i love reading ( except text book & module haha ), i love writing. Mungkin ne la penyebab aku lemah maths time skul dlu.haha tp nevermind la. dapat tebus balik juga kelemahan 2 time d poly ( trkejut bla dapat 4 flat hoho). Kiranya ne, mau jadi novelist la kunun. tapi 2 la. after form 3, PMR memuaskan n dapat masuk science stream. n i was like "omg! thanx God" haha.. u know y?  paam2 la time kita skul. yg result pmr kurang memuaskan p klaz sastera, seni. n d best 1, science stream, account. jadi, pemikiran kita time skul dlu susa ckit. so, time 2 bsyukur sgt dpt masuk science, atleast kita x d pndang rnda...