Annliezel Bautista

Pernah tidak, kau rasa satu detik dalam hidup kau yang kau rasa kau tidak tahu nak buat apa? Kau tidak tahu nak jadi apa? dan kau tidak tahu hidup kau ini apa gunanya? Pernah? Kita serupa. Mahu kata menopause, jiwa masi muda. Aku masih tertanya. oh mungkin masih kurang dari solatnya. Mungkin.

He promised her the moon and sky, A love that time would never deny. A trust once firm, now torn apart, The wound of betrayal, a bleeding heart. The vows they swore in Allah’s sight, To cherish each other, to walk in light. She gave him all, her heart, her soul, Believing he would make her whole. By Allah’s Name, they sealed their vow, Yet sins have stained what’s broken now. Did he forget the sacred trust? The bond of nikah, pure and just? She never knew, she never guessed, Her love was put to the hardest test. He played his game with careful art, While breaking slowly his queen’s heart. And in the silence, she will find The strength to leave the past behind. She release her pain to the heavens above, Trusting in Allah’s boundless love. She will stands though torn inside, Her love and pain she cannot hide. For even though the trust is gone, She’ll rise again, Insha Allah. For love may falter, hearts may break, But she will heal, for her children sake.

Aku mendiam, Dikatanya aku ganjil & jahil. Aku berjenaka, Dikatanya mencari perhatian manusia. cuba buatkan mereka senang dengan segala seloka. Aku menangis, dikatanya aku lemah. Seronok menggapai perhatian sekalian ummah. oh rupanya.. orang kalau sudah tidak suka, kita beri salam pun mereka akan kata bermuka. Manusia, Menjengkelkan.

I reached for stars, but found the ground, my dreams were lost, without a sound. Expectations heavy, hopes too high, now all that's left is asking WHY.

Dear you, Who slowly losing the spark & passion about things you once looked forward to. And stuck in between giving up or seeing how much you could take.  And low key feels like you starting to lose yourself.  "Am i being too hard on myself? Or am i getting weaker? or is it just a random sad day?" Oh dear, You're just tired. Please rest physically, emotionally & spritiually. -N-

Life is full of sudden goodbyes. Sayonara, first love.